Today is the first time in a very long while that I have posted here. I have been experiencing many changes in my life, but now I am at a place where God has said, ‘Slow down! Pull back and relax, and concentrate on me, and Who I am in your life.’ And so, I’m listening!
In 2015, I experienced illness and loss with the passing of my dear mother. I still find myself thinking about things I want to ask her, and thinking I can call her up with the latest news in our lives. Then I remember, she is already hanging out with the angels and having the time of her life. While I am sad, I am happy at the same time, knowing she is happy and safe, and no longer ill. I am at a good place, in gracious acceptance, as I know this was God’s will. But the journey through her illness and subsequent passing took a toll on my mental and physical being. So be it.
Then, just one month shy of a year ago, I was diagnosed with uterine cancer. Was a complete surprise in every way, except one. Because as I suffered through some painful and unsettling symptoms, I was also beginning to realize that it might just be cancer. So when the diagnosis came, I was already accepting of it. Now, that does not mean it was easy, no, not by any means. Two surgeries and radiation therapy later, I still suffer from some side effects that I would rather not discuss, but which I am told will eventually subside.
In the meantime, my mind is back in writing mode. I have started another blog, in addition to this one, and Ohiolilisview.blogspot.com, which I have been writing on for years, and it’s site is WalkingWithGodThroughCancer.blogspot.com. I invite you to visit. I have just written the first installment. How many will there be? Only God can answer that. I am hoping it will help me personally, because I still have many feelings and fears, that I am not dwelling on, mind you. But writing and sharing will help me. And I hope my experience will help others who may be facing, have faced, or have loved ones who have or are facing cancer.
I will be here again on a regular basis as well, talking about God’s awesomeness, about His presence, and about His angels, His messengers.
‘From His abundance we have all received one gracious blessing after another.’ John 1:16